hello.
i guess the effort of video blogging kinda failed. didn't get really good feedback for it and i don't see myself doing it for long anyway. however, you must my caylen videos [1] [2] [3] he is super cute! that kid brightens up my day, anyway :)

well, it seems like i have to start from where i left off last year then. to begin everything, i just want to declare that the year 2010 is simply awesome! really pumped about the many events that are coming up in the months ahead: reservicing in taiwan (march) and youth camp (june) and of course not forgetting eurotrip (june) and EDGE Conference (december) haha many are envious of my excessive traveling this year. but i am just nervous about the money issue.

i quit my job in the church office just last friday. i have served vfc church office for a year with graphic designing. such amazing timing when i went in because last year was a year for many 'firsts' for the church. grateful that i was part of our first healing rally, first large scale charity banquet and also our first youth conference… so proud of my church. we worked hard and slaved endless nights... but surely, it was a time of miracles and blessing! praise God.

right now i am going back to focus more on my studies. school starts next week. a part of me is still feeling ambivalent about the idea of me quitting though. but i guess i need to put my foot down and really try this whole full-time study + flexible hour working (no idea what yet… hopefully i get freelance design jobs) thing. last year was really stressful for me and i failed 3 modules because of the workload. haha that's really bad man zzzz

last year was pretty much a year of searching and try-outs i guess. i went through dramatic ups and downs as i started to get my butt into bible studies at ATCEM. a kaleidoscope of emotions in 2009 – confused, angry, scared, annoyed, sad, envious, happy, excited – really overwhelmed that i was going to explore theology instead of the design studies (something that i always thought i would do) its funny how sometimes when you say "ok God, i'll listen to whatever you say. I trust you." and when you actually make the decision to follow, it is like "wah shit this is for reaaal. ahhhh!!!! omg omg omg" *freak out* 2009 took me by surprise, shook me around, diced me, stirred me and then somehow, in some strange chemistry, it prepared me well to be ready for this year.

i guess i am really expecting a smoother flow for this year (oh please Jesus.. PLEASE!) i have this gut feeling that this year will be a time of beginnings and raising up. very abstract i know. i don't know, i have a good feeling about this year. i mean, after 2009, i would expect everything else will be much more peaceful! haha trusting the Lord that He knows what He is doing by asking me to go on this path. I have come to terms with myself that this is what i am studying and that i should not be too insecure about it. i mean, if i mean what i say and that i believe my God is real… it makes sense that i know He will take care of me right?! humanity kicks in la. but that's good. i would not want to be a 'robot christian…' if you know what i mean ;)

well, contact me if you need me to do designs PLEASE! and, tag on my tagboard to let me know that i still have readers! so sorry guys, took so so freaking long to update. haah